I Miss….



I miss being a child. I miss my childhood. I miss the innocence. I miss the fun. I miss the excitement. I miss the adventures I miss scarping my knee in the playground and having a dinosaur plaster put on it. I miss being spoilt by my Mom. I miss getting excited over the new Power Rangers on TV. I miss singing along to Disney songs in the car on the way to the beach.

I miss being in high school. I miss the first day I met my best friend. I miss the constant fall-outs with the boys over silly little things. I miss the make-up hugs. I miss sitting on the grassy hill on a cold winter morning, surrounded by people who made me laugh

I miss college. I miss sitting on the stairwells at lunchtime, munching on chips and drinking Coke like we had the whole day free ahead of us. I miss the birthday celebrations in the main hall, the food fights with the chocolate cake, the way we’d hide from the popping balloons. I miss looking forward to my lessons, knowing I was about to spend an hour with some great people. I miss the bus journeys home after a long day, relaxing upstairs with our feet propped up until we got to our stop.

Yes, I miss all these things so much it hurts. But you know what I miss most of all? Me. The old me.

I miss waking up in the morning without cutting on my mind. I miss the days when I didn’t have depression. I miss my clear wrists, and my clear mind. I miss being the person I was before ….That boy was amazing; he was confident, sociable, bubbly, fun. Ask anyone; he was a ball of energy, and someone you could honestly say you had a good time with. He was Momma’s baby BOY, great big BROTHER to hIS kid brothers, Daddy’s little spender. He was the life of the party.

He was who I used to be. And who I wish I still was.

I miss hIM. I miss me.

I miss it all.

About anasebrahem

3 Responses to I Miss….

  1. marc says:

    This is incredibly real.

    With all of the boring business related stuff about how to increase and improve this, that and everything else in business in six, or eight or ten easy steps, this is simply human and deeply touching.

  2. Zorica says:

    Beautiful deep and very thoughtful Real and simply awesome…Thank you Anas

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